I Own the Track

At 7 am I own the track. The silence and sweat is exhilarating. Now, I don’t feel right unless I workout in the mornings. There is something about it that makes me feel, fulfilled, accomplished, calm, and happy.

Today has been beautiful. I woke up this morning at 7, ran a few laps, did a few crunches, and enjoyed the wonderful breezy morning. Everything in my classes went smoothly. I consulted with my Master on what to have for lunch and settled on a chik-fil-a grilled chicken salad with my own special mix of ranch and buffalo sauce dressing.  Here I am, currently, sitting in my living room enjoying the rain storm. 

I love days like theses; days where I don’t have to wear a jacket and I feel like I look good even when simply sporting a university t-shirt. 

Master found got a good job with a decent pay so it seems things are starting to go back to normal for us and when I start working everything will be stable. We will be able to start visiting each other again soon. I miss him very much and I think this temporary distance and separation has been good for us even though it sucks at the same time. 

Anyway Happy Monday all!

Third Time's the Charm

So first off I am going to start with the typical apology for not writing in a while that everyone gives after they feel they havn't written in while so here it goes.... ahem...

Dear readers.... I apologize that I haven't written in a while. I have been a very busy butterfly. (I like butterfly better then bee)

Okay now that that's out of the way,

Due to financial restrictions and bad luck on both our parts, my Master was not able to make his bi-weekly visit. We are both sexual frustrated and emotionally drained because we love each other so much and cannot see each other for a while.

I have been very very busy this past week with HW and such which was extremly stressful so all my submissive tendencies had been put to the back of my mind for a while, but I'm back.

For those who have read past posts... I have attempted twice to start an exercise routine and stick to it. The second attempt worked for break, but when I came back to school it got all screwed up. Here starts my third exercise routine attempt that will put my on the path to my 115 lb. goal.

Motivation = Since my Master and I will not see each other for a few weeks I would like to be in amazingly jaw draping shape when he does see me. The idea that I am doing this for Him as well as myself gives my the motivation. (Also the look on His face that I'll get... hehe)

So here is how it's going to succeed the third time.

I am going to get up and go to the gym three days a week at about 7:00am..

Why this will work:

• No one will be there at 7am (This is college) so I won't be so self-concious.
• I will have amazing energy for the rest of the day.
• I will only burn stored fat because I will not have eaten yet.
• I don't have to worry about events for my organizations being scheduled during my gym time therefore messing up my routine and breaking my habit which would cause me to stop going.
• It's quiet and pretty in the morning. I don't have to deal with loud obnoxious college students because they generally stay up late to be loud and obnoxious and then sleep in AKA my me and gym time! :)
• I won't have the excuse that I'm too tired from class so I can't go. 

I feel like this is my best plan yet. In fact I encourage you all to comment here to make sure I have done my daily routine for the next couple of weeks becuase the more encouragement I get the better : )

It has occured to me...

There are some things I really want to write about, but possibly even let my friends and relatives see and read. So I'm probably going to make another blog with my more... main stream happenings in life. The thing is I didn't want to have to separate the two. I would like to be able to write about both main stream and alternative lifestyle, but I can't have my younger siblings and grandparents reading about this lol.

I'm not sure why I'm writing this here. I guess it's because (like I said in an earlier post) this has become my journal where people can comment and I can can say anything without anyone knowing who I am. So I can get the feedback needed while keeping my animosity. (My name isn't really  Ellie Taylor it's a  pseudo name)

 At the same time I want to be able to write freely, not having to worry about what I censor, and not care about what people think. It's almost ironic. I started this blog so that I had a place to do this and now it seems I am having the same issue on the internet. Funny how things work.