Nice and Simple

This post is pretty straight forward.

I'm dying to live with Him.

I'm dying to see what it would be like 24/7

Very anxious sub here.

Very Excited!

I'm starting to get some readers! And positive opinions. This makes me excited because I really do want people to read my blog. Spread the word :)

Anyway... I'm up to 130 lashings/punishments/whatever he has planned.

Yes, I'm just that stubbron.

Actuality, I lied To Him. So he added like 70.

Things are going back to normal, I feel it. I'm falling in love once more :) <3

I really just wish the distance was over. We are both adults now and I feel like this back and fourth for the weekends thing is juvenile. We have no privacy to really live the life style we want and we only see each other for two days at a time. No fun. Also probably the major root of our relationship issues.

So anyway, if people read this please post some comments. I would love to hear them.

Or suggestions about anything for my Master. He does read my blog.

P.S. I'm slightly scared about the amount of punishments, When He came last time, He pinched my nipples very hard until I squealed and each one of those counted as one. He only did ten, and it hurt...

Ugh

It's difficult to continue on a path of M/s when your having relationship issues.

P.S. I think I'm up to sixty some lashings, not including the pain I was put through this weekend after a visit from Him.

Where does a person draw the line between Master/slave and actual love and trust issues? A person is a person. We all have feelings, dominant or submissive.

I want my loving boyfriend back, I want everything to be perfect again so we can continue our wonderful M/s relationship.

I feel like a line has been severd, and now it's hard to be open and trusting. It's hard to see our sexual relationship as anything other then just sex.

Where is the love and passion? I want it back.

So I've found out that

So I've found out that I can update my blogs by texting! That's right I'm texting right now. This is pretty cool.
Ellie <3

Ellie <3

Ellie <3

lets see if this text

lets see if this text worked : )
Ellie <3

Live. Laugh. Love. and Think Positive.

So....

I have figured out why I need it. Control and Domination.My life is hectic. It's full of disappointments, backstabbers and long periods of bad luck... (I hate August.)

Anyways, I was watching "Secretary" which is basically a film about getting some form of control in this girls life. She starts out getting out of a mental institution because she cuts her self. (I don't just for the record) Her dad's a raging, drunken, abusive, alcoholic and her mom never takes a stand. Well, she gets hired by a lawyer who has control issues and a thing for submissive girls. He comes in on her cutting herself and tells her never to do it again. She doesn't. She's happier.

My point is, we all need a sense of control in our lives, even if it comes in the form of another person. I have no control it feels like, but when I have my Master giving me rules about everyday things, I am happier. I have goals. I am better because of it and everything seems to fall into place. Through Him, in a way, I am able to control my life. He looks after me and takes care of me. He cares for me. Whether a person is into BDSM or not who doesn't want that? I adore Him becuase of it.

He will never abandon me. 

On another note, I have new rules and amendments to others.

• To say "Yes, Sir." or "Yes, Master" after everything he asks, requests or says. 
• Wash thoroughly with soap. Every crevice, so that I am nice a clean, every shower.
• Go to the gym every other day. I have to keep myself healthy and in shape.
• When ever possible or when I am sure it is him, answer the phone with "Hello, sir" or "Hello, Master."
• I must not question master.
• I must not talk back.
• I must listen to the hypnosis he chooses, not matter what. 
• No more zit cream (lol I know it sounds gross, sorry...)
• Think Positive. (Because I have a hard time with that.)
  

An Update on the Rules.

I'm up to 12 lashings... me and my big mouth.

I must not question master. 

I must not talk back.

I must listen to the hypnosis he chooses, not matter what.

Also there is a change to the Gym rule.

I can either go to the gym every otherday, or use the anal beads. It's my choice, but I must pick one.

So here's the complete list so far:

• To say "Yes, Sir." or "Yes, Master" after everything he asks, requests or says. 
• Wash thoroughly with soap. Every crevice, so that I am nice a clean, every shower.
• Go to the gym Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I have to keep myself healthy and in shape. Or If I so choose, I can wear the anal beads for the time period that master chooses.
• When ever possible or when I am sure it is him, answer the phone with "Hello, sir" or "Hello, Master."
• I must not question master.
• I must not talk back.
• I must listen to the hypnosis he chooses, not matter what. 

Rules

Slowly there are rules I have to remember to follow. I'm gonna write them here so I can keep track.


So far, all that I can remember is:

• To say "Yes, Sir." or "Yes, Master" after everything he asks, requests or says. 
• Wash thoroughly with soap. Every crevice, so that I am nice a clean, every shower.
• Go to the gym Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I have to keep myself healthy and in shape. 
• When ever possible or when I am sure it is him, answer the phone with "Hello, sir" or "Hello, Master."

So far, that's all I've got. I can't remember any more but I'm sure he'll give me some more. 

I enjoyed this poem from her master to his slave.

In fact I've enjoyed almost everything this guy has written about being a master.

Dedicated to my slave, who I have been separated from for a time.

If She Were Here

I'd tie her down.
Pull her wet panties off, and stuff them in her mouth.
Twist her nipples cruelly.
Bite her, bite every piece of beautiful white skin that was showing.
Gag her with my long, thick cock.
Make her swallow every drop.
Flip her over and fuck her like a dog.
Spank her for even the simplest disobedience (or, if need be, an imagined one)
Call her slut, bitch, slave, til I can't speak.
Slap her, drug her, rape her.

This is what I'd do if you were here. I hope to see you again soon, Pet. I'm thinking about you every day.

Love...so much love,
Master

I also like the way he described a master slave relationship. For a kid freash outta high school this is pretty good.

Yes, a master and slave relationship is formed by the chains that hold the slave down. Yes, bondage is a fetish, and yes, rough sex is still sex. But it's still a relationship, and no matter how much it doesn't seem like it, a Master really does love his slave.

Master, I am feeling a bit neglected.

It's Simple

I want to be loved. I want to make love.