Productivity is Lacking

Today has not been productive nor has it felt productive.

I blame the absence of my workout this morning. No... scratch that... I blame my arguing roommates (bf & gf) that thought it necessary to stay up all night (and I mean alllllll night) yelling at eachother aboiut something stupid.

I had planned to go to the gym this morning at 6:30am and I was very excited about it too. : ( But I was kept awake alllll night.

Anyway... PRODUCTIVITY

I have a huge exit exam on Monday that I'm scared out of my mind I won't pass. If I do not pass I do not graduate.

"Do not pass go, do not collect $200"

I havn't really started studing for it yet, but it's kind of like a standardize test for my major. How do I study for that? Today I have had no motivation what so ever.

I also have a million deadlines comming up for projects, papers, presentations...ect. 

And since I have not seen my Master and we have laid off the D/s thing recently (not for any specific reason... we just havn't been doing that stuff...busy), I am starting to get bored and feel unproductive, plus I need a little "Master-Time" 

I keep dreaming and thinking about Him and his strong body walking towards me with a deviant, dangerous, dark look in his eyes. He is calm though and stern. MMMMM how I miss that.

I also miss the sweet things too. The goofiness, the kisses, the hugs, and laying in bed together. 

I miss all of it. 

I have a feeling that the lack of "Master" has lead to my feeling unproductive. We do talk all the time, but it's just not the same as seeing Him. 

Oh yeah, and I have a new rule = No Masturbating unless He is on the phone with me. 

I will gladly OBEY.