Live. Laugh. Love. and Think Positive.

So....

I have figured out why I need it. Control and Domination.My life is hectic. It's full of disappointments, backstabbers and long periods of bad luck... (I hate August.)

Anyways, I was watching "Secretary" which is basically a film about getting some form of control in this girls life. She starts out getting out of a mental institution because she cuts her self. (I don't just for the record) Her dad's a raging, drunken, abusive, alcoholic and her mom never takes a stand. Well, she gets hired by a lawyer who has control issues and a thing for submissive girls. He comes in on her cutting herself and tells her never to do it again. She doesn't. She's happier.

My point is, we all need a sense of control in our lives, even if it comes in the form of another person. I have no control it feels like, but when I have my Master giving me rules about everyday things, I am happier. I have goals. I am better because of it and everything seems to fall into place. Through Him, in a way, I am able to control my life. He looks after me and takes care of me. He cares for me. Whether a person is into BDSM or not who doesn't want that? I adore Him becuase of it.

He will never abandon me. 

On another note, I have new rules and amendments to others.

• To say "Yes, Sir." or "Yes, Master" after everything he asks, requests or says. 
• Wash thoroughly with soap. Every crevice, so that I am nice a clean, every shower.
• Go to the gym every other day. I have to keep myself healthy and in shape.
• When ever possible or when I am sure it is him, answer the phone with "Hello, sir" or "Hello, Master."
• I must not question master.
• I must not talk back.
• I must listen to the hypnosis he chooses, not matter what. 
• No more zit cream (lol I know it sounds gross, sorry...)
• Think Positive. (Because I have a hard time with that.)