Time I Start Blogging Again....

Why did I stop. No idea. School I guess...

WEll, I would love to actulley find people my own age to chat with and be friends with face to face to talk about this stuff... but it's so hard to find anyone.

Anyway... somthing someone wrote on a site that I liked...

"I find the arty people to be the most interesting most of the time. Though there are always those quiet accounting majors or religious studies girls who would shock the pants off both of us."

Yeah.. change quiet accounting major to quiet finance major, and you got me.

I found this very amusing.

I sure as hell would shock the pants off of anyone who knew I was a sub :)

Bad Mood

It's been quite a while and I apologize.

I find my self in a bad mood when I am missing my Master. It takes me a while to realize that the cause of my bad mood is that I am feeling submissive, but he is not here to submit to.

In the meantime, here are some writings from a fellow online deviant that I have throuroughly enjoyed read and I feel make a lot of sense.

...being a master requires me to have an understanding of a girl's heart, and what it takes to make it throb...any brute can simply brandish a whip and rape, but a true dom uses romance and seduction to slowly dissolve discontent and make a girl willingly submit herself to him. That is true art.

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Do not be afraid. I will not hurt you. The world has forsaken you but I am still here.

I will protect you, I will make everything alright. That's what a Master does.

If you cry, I will hold you. If you need me, you only need ask. You are not my slave, you are my Pet, and so I must care for you with love, not pain.

In exchange for all this that I give to you, my love, my protection, my kind ear and my warm embrace, I only ask one thing: Submit.

It's easier than you think. Just toss aside your will and kneel before me. Obey me without question. That's all I ask.

We will be together. We will laugh and cry together. We will hold each other, together, but you shall still submit.

Yes, there will be pain. And punishment. But that is only so you know how to make me happy. Don't you want me to be happy?

Do not be afraid. I'm here. I'll stay here, with you, even when the world has left you. 

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Sadomasochism is a large sacrifice for both parties. The master must make sure that his slave/pet is cared for. He must put her before everything else. And she must do the same for him.

Submit...and you will not regret it.

Nice and Simple

This post is pretty straight forward.

I'm dying to live with Him.

I'm dying to see what it would be like 24/7

Very anxious sub here.

Very Excited!

I'm starting to get some readers! And positive opinions. This makes me excited because I really do want people to read my blog. Spread the word :)

Anyway... I'm up to 130 lashings/punishments/whatever he has planned.

Yes, I'm just that stubbron.

Actuality, I lied To Him. So he added like 70.

Things are going back to normal, I feel it. I'm falling in love once more :) <3

I really just wish the distance was over. We are both adults now and I feel like this back and fourth for the weekends thing is juvenile. We have no privacy to really live the life style we want and we only see each other for two days at a time. No fun. Also probably the major root of our relationship issues.

So anyway, if people read this please post some comments. I would love to hear them.

Or suggestions about anything for my Master. He does read my blog.

P.S. I'm slightly scared about the amount of punishments, When He came last time, He pinched my nipples very hard until I squealed and each one of those counted as one. He only did ten, and it hurt...

Ugh

It's difficult to continue on a path of M/s when your having relationship issues.

P.S. I think I'm up to sixty some lashings, not including the pain I was put through this weekend after a visit from Him.

Where does a person draw the line between Master/slave and actual love and trust issues? A person is a person. We all have feelings, dominant or submissive.

I want my loving boyfriend back, I want everything to be perfect again so we can continue our wonderful M/s relationship.

I feel like a line has been severd, and now it's hard to be open and trusting. It's hard to see our sexual relationship as anything other then just sex.

Where is the love and passion? I want it back.

So I've found out that

So I've found out that I can update my blogs by texting! That's right I'm texting right now. This is pretty cool.
Ellie <3

Ellie <3

Ellie <3