Change is Constant

Change is Constant. I embrace it hesitantly  Like sticking my toes in the pool water to test the temperature before jumping in. You can't blame me. Every major change in my life has impacted me in a negative way... at  first and then developed into something amazing. Like the initial shock to your body when jumping into the slightly chilly pool water after weighting the pro's and cons of walking away.

M is in the Air Force. That's right. We have gone military. Once again, another year, another MAJOR change in my life.

I have many doubts and fears, but I am also very excited and have some adrenaline pumping. I am excited to see what happens and what comes next. For a while I saw my life going nowhere. I saw myself stuck in a bland, boring, colorless place with no adventure. And now all these doors and possibilities are opening up again. What's going to happen? Where is life going to go? What opportunities will this create for us....

And on a more SEXI note.... M is a military man which makes his hotness score sky rocket and I didn't think it could go much further ; ).

Instead of getting to test the waters first, I'm getting pushed in. Instead of weighting the pros and cons, someone else is in control of whether or not and when I have to jump into the pool....

I am used to planning. When your lifestyle changes to "military" you can't exactly plan. I have no choice, but to sit back and let go of the control over my future. It is now up to M.

I am scared, but excited and then I realize.... isn't that the nature of a sub, to have another take over and control of their life, to make the decision for them. To decide what is best, safe and healthy? I am a sub. M is my Master. He is taking control of our future and I will be obediently by his side from now on.