I'm feeling anxiety about the whole thing though. I don't know if it's because it will be the first time on my own since the whole disaster of a move or if it's because a 7 1/2 hour drive seems a little intimidating. Or maybe I just really did want M to come. Idk. Usually my intuition like this is a warning sign, but every thinks i need to go and I want to go.
My plan is to learn to meditate, to exercise, to jump back on a good sleep cycle, and to purge myself of all the bad foods I've been eating. I may even try to take a bath or two which I usually find tedious and boring. I got many books from the library which I intend reading also. Basically I'm a go go go person and I'm going to learn to relax again and get away from my stressful household before I start my adult life.
I did the same thing last year and ended up continuing to lose 15 pounds when I got back and I was living in a very happy stress free way while working at the same time. Of course my mood went south and I gained all that weight back, when I moved, but I guess my mission is to find that happy place again where I was getting fit, my emotions felt stable and I was generally a happy girl.
So until next week or whenever I decide to come home = )
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P.S. I plan on using Honim Myo meaning from this moment on as my mantra as I learn to meditate. Thanks to "Kitten for Sir" for giving me that one.
